Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare

wearing borrowed black bandage skirt, Forever 21 pocket tank, Parisian wedges, Forever 21 leopard bag


First of all, yes I knowww I am on my phone for most of these photos.. but do I at least get a free pass if I'm texting with someone on the other side of the world? At this point, I am practically married to my iPhone. He is reliable and always on time and surprises me with little messages. Yes, its that bad.

I do recognize that I now qualify for the "most distracted blogger award" if there is such a thing. I dont even have a good excuse.. I have just been partying a little too much. My heart is pretty heavy these days, and I guess the endless socializing offers a cheap distraction to all things morose and draining. It seems like we are all fighting battles within ourselves and sometimes slip and fight off the one thing that was good and right. I wonder if we are all getting wiser as we get older or if we are all just getting jaded and hardened. Some of the things that used to make my day just make me cry and I question every aspect of every decision I make, over and over again until I can almost feel my brain bleed. My heart breaks every day and at any given moment, and I have no idea as to why.. or how I can prevent it from happening. Some days I wake up and wish myself far away where nobody knows me, nobody questions me or expects anything of me. But what I cant make up my mind about is; when we are backed into a corner by life, should we stand our ground and push back or run away and wait for the horizon to clear?

I guess I'm just tired and need to reboot.

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